Tornado of soul

I'm kinda in a bit of a twisty-turney tornado of tug-of-wars with life now...
A few friends want me to move in with them, some want me to move across the country...
And if the question is: what do I want? Well I don't have an answer
All I know is I have to have a guitar wherever I go.


ya!this! is a excellent song. Kinda got me thinking about this stuff...then again...I'v been thinking about where I belong and stuff like that for a while now...and I am just confusing myself more and more...
Not even 20 and trying to be like "Wth have I done with my life" hahahah
I guess I'm sorta sick of not knowing/planning anything. Not setting goals or even trying for them when I do... Cause I never take anything "I" say seriously (i really mean "Cause.....anything "I" say to myself seriously" but I leave that in to remind people that no one is ever really sure of their thoughts and that change kinda has a stranglehold on alot of us, even as I write this now it has been almost 3 weeks since i first starte this idea...and no i havn't changed anything since...only added)





On a different sort of note....I'm getting more restless....like I want to be good at guitar now, so I can jam with my new friend Adam (Laz as he prefers, his last name is Lazlow) but he's got like 12 years under his belt so it dosn't work... but I try still...for a short period....Course his style of music is very different than mine, and he does record music like professionally...which kinda makes me jealous, but I can turn that jealousy into somthing positive...im sure i can use it to drive myself to learn as much as I can!...But now my friends...I'm ranting...so on to another topic...lest I go on all night about this... cause I can talk about music forever. ENOUGH.



OMG too many books! I have about 9 books here...that I have to read...and about 12 more in different series of books...I can't wait to get the time :)



I keep wantin to write songs...but I can't...cause I never have a notepad on me...and I'm usually doing somthing at the time...like working... I'll do it sometime...meybe after I learn that "have yourself a merry little christmas" but that'll take forever....*sigh*....



Booo...... for the entire duration of that what I was just writing...I really felt depressed.... and for some reason decided to bitch about things that I can only blame myself for....thats kinda

HAHA thats where i left off november 18th! and i havnt logged on since then....woow.... I'm about to post another... but I also just thought this would be good to post....cause i have 3 XD

4 NOW!! lol